STANDING FREE!

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There comes a point in time when things hidden will be revealed. It is a spiritual law that God set in place. “For there is nothing hidden that will not be disclosed.” Luke 8:17. At times, we wait on God to do the revealing, but He is waiting on us to make the first step. But before I get into the purpose for this blog, I need to discuss something else of great importance. I have been told that I cannot be “credible” because I have Traumatic Brain Injury. I have been called, “foolish,” “stupid” and a whole list of other names relating to my credibility. Apparently, people with brain injuries and disabilities cannot be telling the truth. Why? It is because we are disabled. This is about as pathethic as asking a Deaf person if they cry. Yes! This happened. A woman asked the Deaf teacher in a class I was taking this question and her and I both were absolutely stunned that someone could ask such a heartless thing. Yes! There are evil and heartless people in this world, who also laugh at the senseless pain of others. In fact, it makes them feel important to do so. Having Traumatic Brain Injury, the pain I felt in the beginning of the injury was excruciating. So much so, I thought of killing myself. I became like the child instead of the mother and my kids had to help take care of me.  They learned compassion at a very early age and never once complained about it. Yet, I felt they would be better off without me being such a burden. I thought suicide was the best answer for all of us. Thankfully, God intervened and I chose to live with this terrible injury. People have no real idea of the pain I suffered. My saving grace was Figure Skating. Out on that ice, I felt no pain and I was able to get strong again. I am still skating and I will never give the sport up. But, I still had the symptoms of Traumatic Brain Injury. Yet, my symptoms did not create a mental instability. In fact, it created just the opposite. My partial hearing loss caused me to become more alert to my surroundings. I became very sharp in observation. My training in Deaf Communication taught me facial expressions and body language.  But I couldn’t tell you what I had for breakfast that morning. I didn’t train my brain to remember food. I tried many times to work outside of home. But, due to what I am about to disclose, I never felt safe. So while at home,  I became an expert at research. I then became and author and now a screenplay writer making my first film. I have over 15 published books on the market as well. I am a photographer with over 100,000 pictures of the Gettysburg Battlefields. Mostly, I did a lot of praying and studying the Bible. God was the ONLY one who believed me. He knew what I was going through and He was the only one I could confide in. He was the one who kept me and my family safe through the years. He is the one who kept me sane when for all intents and purposes, I should have gone stark raving mad. This ordeal should have sent me to the grave. Which was their purpose. But, they didn’t realize who my Father God was and is. They did not know that their attacks forced me to get stronger. They did not realize that the more they haunted, hunted and attacked me, I grew in knowledge. What they meant for evil, God used for good. They wiretapped me, stalked me, tried to poison me, tried to run me off the highway, slammed into my car at 70 plus miles an hour trying to murder me and my son. But one of the worst parts about all of this was, the fact they used psychological warfare. They played mind games and then laughed about it. They tried to break my will. They used psychological propoganda to influence my thinking in fear. Manipulation is a trap of Satan. What they did not count on or take into consideration, is that I am also an expert of demonic tactics. I understand how Satan works to demoralize a human being. The sad part is that he uses other humans to do it. The mind is a very fierce thing that we as humans possess. But, it can be destroyed. Which is precisely what Satan wants to do. He comes, “to steal, to kill and to destroy.” If he can control the mind, he can control and possess the person. They know where I am at all times. When I went to the police about it, back in 2010, they told me I was not “credible.” They referred to my head injury and told me, I was “not accurate.” This I have in an email. Six months later, my son and I were slammed into (on purpose) by a woman going 70 plus miles per hour. The inspector said the undercarriage of the car was pushed up two feet. He estimated she was going almost 80mph. Her intent was to push us into a tractor trailer. But, God told me to keep the wheel straight and keep both feet on the brake peddle. When I saw my son get pushed forward almost hitting his head on the dashboard (yes even with a seat belt on), that image will forever be burned into my injured brain. The seven or eight years I had been fearfully dealing with being stalked, suddenly, I became a bear fighting to protect her cubs. That accident was the turning point and almost eight years ago. Which makes the time I have been dealing with this, at least fifteen years. I was threatened to my face and was told, “When it gets to the deadline, you are dead.” So, the question remains, why would anyone want to kill me? You would have to first address the fact that Satan exists in order to get a full answer to that question. I grew up in a house of witchcraft. I know how he operates and I know he doesn’t want me to work for God. I know he doesn’t want to me to reveal his strategies. If I didn’t understand military warfare, or spiritual warfare, I would have been crushed. Satan uses people to get his will accomplished. But, it does not mean they will not be held accountable.

From my own human standpoint, I have made the mistake of thinking everyone was my enemy. There was a time when I couldn’t point out who was a friend and who was a foe. I couldn’t trust anyone. Every person I met, every person I saw, I had suspicions. Which it probably showed in my eyes and actions. I stare a lot at people. But, it is to memorize features. Criminals can change their hair, and even wear contacts. But, facial features and expressions are pretty much on target. They can gain weight or lose it. But gestures and personalities, are also something that is part of our makeup.  Still, to this day, I do not know why this has happened. I have names, videos, and pictures. But, I do not know why anyone would want to bring me harm. My only spiritual reason is that Satan hates me. But, he hates them too and once he is done with them, he will pull the rug out from under them.  Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior. They lost, even before they started. “As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.” I am on a mission. Had my son not been in the car that day, I am not sure I would be so determined to see them put behind bars for life. But, my son was hurt that day and I will never forget it. My own pain will never come close to the fact that my son was almost killed. I am a mother and I will continue to fight to keep my family safe. Does this blog sound like the rantings of a crazy mental patient? Of course not! My only hope is that one of them reads it. They know, I know who they are.  Though, I cannot raise a hand against them. That is up to Almighty God and the courts to decide. But, I am coming to make sure evidence is brought to the surface. I am coming to make sure they get a righteous judgment. And NO! I am no longer afraid of them. I am 100% confident that my God protects me and my family. No police protection ever helped us. In fact, as stated above it was just the opposite. It’s the reason I have taken so long to come out of the closet. I was tired of not being taken seriously. I trust my God. He will make the crooked places straight. In the beginning, I may have been wrong about who was doing what. But, I am not wrong about how this has been an ongoing ordeal that I have had to live with. I have had to become my own Detective. My life matters and so do the lives of my family. I have asked God to confirm the truth. I am awaiting for Him to do so. When He does, I will be the only one standing free, this side of a prison cell! PEOPLE WITH DISABILITIES, NEED TO BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY! As for my family, this will be a shock to them as I never told them anything until now.

Juliana Love

Gettysburg, PA

 

 

 

 

 

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WOMEN IN HOLLYWOOD!

As an up and coming screenwriter/producer, I have much to say about the current situation with women in Hollywood. First, I think they are some of the most beautiful and smart women that have ever graced the planet. They work incredibly hard on their billion dollar figures. However, I do not understand why some of those women waited ten, and twenty years, to finally expose sexual misconduct charges, against their producers and other men they worked with. But, why now? Why have these allegations been hidden for so long? Why did they not speak up when it happened? Even if…no one believed them, the chances of the abuse continuing would have been slim and not just for them, but for other women. They may have been fired from a leading role. But, is not a woman’s integrity more important then fame? The question that must be asked is this. What are women willing to do, in order to get a part? Does not tolerance and silence mean acceptance? Hollywood would cease to exist without its leading ladies. So, being fired from one role, does not mean exclusion from all. Why? Because women are needed in Hollywood as much as men are. There again, Hollywood would cease to exist without its leading ladies.

Still, I also have to ask.  What did they think was going to happen when they agreed to meet in private at a hotel room? There again, where was their integrity? I am not saying that what these men did was right. But the silence of these abused women, meant acceptance. So, the cycle was allowed to continue and it continued for many years. What a horrible way to have to live and work.

I find it very disturbing to watch the Golden Globes and other award shows, seeing most of the women half naked. I do not watch these shows to see boobs and butts. I watch them to see what films, actors and actresses win. But, I have to turn the shows off due to the dress of these women and the fact that these award shows have turned into political agendas.  There are ways to dress sexy without being slutty. Unfortunately, young teenage girls also watch these shows. If the dress code is appropriate for Hollywood, it must be, “Okay!” Let me tell you, it is not okay.  These women should have more self respect. I am not saying that just because they dress this way that it is okay for men to make “unwanted sexual advances.” There should never be sexual harassment for any reason. I am saying that those in positions of influence, should use their influence for good, especially when young teenage minds look up to them. In this case, less is not more; less is slutty and trashy. It makes them look like glorified hookers. Then they expect to be taken seriously, when they protest sexual harassment. Put some damn clothes on!!! Stay the hell away from your producers or directors hotel room. Stop putting yourself in compromising positions. It is really that simple. If you are given the ultimatum to sleep with them or lose a role, have some self respect and walk the hell out!!! 

If you want a role so bad you are willing to do anything to get it, I suggest you at that point, stop crying, “Wolf.” You have willingly allowed yourself to be used. When it has crossed over to issues of sex offenses, then you have a responsibility to speak up. There again, your silence means acceptance.

Thankfully, after so many years, women of Hollywood are finally starting to use their voice. Women, who are just as talented as men, should be of the same pay scale. Remember, Hollywood would cease to exist without its leading ladies. More and more women are coming out as directors and producers. This is a grand time for women in Hollywood. But, use your voice and your influence for good. I am not interested in “making it big” in Hollywood. I am not willing to do anything to get my “big break.” My trust is is God. He will get me where I need to be. I have a message and my message will be heard and seen across the universe, not just in California.

Till next time,

Juliana

 

 

THE GREATEST FORM OF TRUTH!

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This is the first blog for my “Juliana’s Not So Politically Correct” Facebook page. Soon, there will be videos. But for now, the blogs will have to do! First of all, this particular blog is in regard to Oprah Winfrey’s statements at the Golden Globes and one very disturbing statement she made in the past. She talked about in an interview, how “people who were born and bred in racism had to die.” These were the “older generation of people,” some who might still be alive. Let me say, this is a disgrace to Martin Luther King Jr. and the Civil Rights Movement. Not once, NO NOT ONCE did he ever say anything so disgusting. In fact Oprah, what you stated is the exact opposite of what Martin Luther King Jr. stood for. Here, let me refresh your memory.

“Darkness cannot drive out darkness, only light can do that.

Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that.”

 

“Life’s most persistent and urgent question is, “What are you doing for others?”

 

“We must develop and maintain the capacity to forgive. He who is devoid of the power to forgive, is devoid of the power to love. There is some good in the worst of us and some evil in the best of us.  When we discover this, we are less prone to hate our enemies.”

 

Martin Luther King Jr. was a man of love. If he heard what you said about how those people had to die, he would roll over in his grave. Why? Because of love. He knew what racism and hate felt like. He saw how it mangled and ripped apart a culture of innocent people, who were judged by the color of their skin. Yet, have you not made yourself just as guilty as the whites who did that by talking murder? Oprah, you sound like a bored billionare who needs a reality check.

Furthermore, let’s talk about your Golden Globe speech. Well, at least a section of it. To talk as if everyone’s “truth” is supposed to be empowering, is pain and simple bullshit! You have left it wide open for zero accountability. Because if everyone’s truth is “your truth,” then who is to say which truth is wrong and which truth is right? Basically, you have acted like, my truth, your truth, the truth of those who are actually evil, is truth. There again, where is the accountability? If everyone’s truth is truth, even the thoughts of doing harm to others, then it must be okay because it is their truth. Do you realize how absolutely stupid this sounds? This kind of talk is dangerous. The problem is that you have a broad influence of people, who actually look up to you and this is what you tell them? Then to hear you want to run for the Presidency? Are you kidding me? No seriously…ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!! I pray that it will be a cold day in HELL before you ever are elected President.

Oprah, go back and learn from Martin Luther King Jr. Go back and understand that Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life. If you want to guage truth, read the Bible. Remember, Martin Luther King Jr. was a godly man. He made the decision to stick to love, UNDER CIRCUMSTANCES THAT YOU WILL NEVER KNOW. Why? Because he said that hate was too much of a burden to bear.

We all need to stick to love; follow the Golden Rule and be kind! There is too much hate in this world. We need to be good people. We need to love each other; build each other up and just be caring. We need to help our neighbors; check on the ederly; let someone in front of us at the grocery store line; give our time and just show we care. The greatest form of truth – is love!

Till next time,

 

Juliana