Nice title huh? But it is the truth. Especially when you live with chronic pain and there is nothing you can do about it, except ache.
I have been battling severe chronic pain for over twenty years. Lately it has gotten worse. Possibly the weather is to blame, but I really don’t know. All I know is, I went through hell for several weeks. Then I became depressed and immobile. I was cut off from life. It felt like this cloud of oppression enveloped me. I tried over the counter pain medicine. But nothing really worked. I used ice packs to help with any swelling of my face, as I had a migraine at the same time. I was pretty diligent to try to get rid of the pain, but just touching me made me cry. Eventually, I gave in to the pain instead of fighting it. Which was a huge mistake. I even took ownership of “my pain.” I basically invited and welcomed it to stay. When I became stationary, I allowed myself to become solidified. I started to not be able to move at all without increasing pain. I needed to embrace the pain and stretch my way through it.
Far too often we are in the stretching process. Although I am not pain free while typing this, I am feeling better. Stretching allows us to go further. On the ice, stretching allows my movements to be extended more and it creates a much prettier element. But the pain, is in the process of the stretch. But who wants to do something that is painful? Instead we recoil backwards, when we must be pressing forward through it. We have to resist the urge to stay motionless. One step forward, is better then two steps backwards. Which is what I was doing when I was rocking back and forth in my chair wishing I felt better. My body was screaming at me to stretch and to move around, but the pain crippled me.
There are times when we simply need to rest. But when that time passes and we are still sitting in our rocking chairs that is when it becomes dangerous. Life at that point begins to pass us by. Pain sucks! Yes, it is true. But it is also an indicator that something is not right and is a motivator that something needs to be done about it. When the motivator stops motivating, it means that pain has overtaken me or you and we have given into it completely. It has become our Master. We have begun to serve the pain we are so desperately trying to overcome.
I do not have all of the answers as to why you might be in pain. I just pray that God will use your pain to motivate you, into the journey of better days ahead. I am thankful today that my pain level is minimal. I am stretching, bending, walking and working. I couldn’t do that last week. I have learned to be thankful for the good days. I am learning to understand the painful process of stretching. My pain is not all physical. Some of it is spiritual and emotional. Sometimes we have to let go of the old, so that the new can come. It is not easy to stretch my faith. Pain sucks! But the end of the process is glorious. My prayer, if you are in pain, is that God will bring you the best possible solution along with the understanding. But also that you will not stay in a stationary place. Please keep putting one foot in front of the other. It will hurt to take that step. But doesn’t it hurt to stay where you are? So, if you are hurting anyway, why not force yourself to do something good. Get out that weight set; walk around the block; read a book; make that phone call. What ever you are putting off due to pain, just do it. I am not saying go out and run a marathon. I am saying take a baby step. Crawl if you have to. But at least you are moving forward. At least you are kicking pain’s ass, instead of it kicking yours!!!
Wishing you Light, Love and Happiness!